Friday Feels

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I wanted to take the time and devote this post to a bit of catching up. This past month and a bit has felt like a whirlwind of emotions. I've gone from feeling completely unmotivated in my writing and my blog to suddenly having a rush of realization that this is what I want and should be doing with my days. I don't want to say that I want blogging to be my 'career', but I've finally learned to accept that I genuinely enjoy it and it has provided me a great space to share my thoughts, creativity, and writing portfolio for other potential endeavours. 

This sudden spark in motivation has brought back a certain purpose in my life that I felt I was lacking since leaving my full time job a few months ago. Not to mention the creative haze I get into when summer rolls around. By the end of August I was feeling a bit lost and didn't really know what I wanted to do with myself and what the next steps I wanted to take were. But I am glad to report that since putting a bit more effort into my blog I have had brands reach out to me for small collaborations and even accepted at a marketing company to do some freelance writing projects for them. 

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While these happenings are fairly small, they are steps in the right direction and it's taken me a while to realize that this is the path I want to go down. People seem to be confused when I tell them that my passion is to write. They usually follow up that statement by asking, "writing what?", as though I have to limit myself to a certain style or genre to really know where I want to go with my life. But I've gotten to the point now where I can genuinely say that I just enjoy the act of writing; of flexing my prose muscles and putting words together to evoke certain emotions in my readers. Stuffing myself into a box of who I think I should be or who people want me to be hasn't done me any real good up until now, so why would I continue doing it?

All of these fuzzy feelings towards my blog and writing might change in a month's time (as they have done in the past), but as of right now I am feeling good about the understanding that I don't have to be anything other than what I want to in the moment. No one is holding me accountable to staying with the same style or aesthetic. My goals for the next month are to stick with daily-ish blogging, to not be afraid to experiment with different photographic styles (despite how contrasting they may be from my current one), and to let myself do what feels good instead of what I think I should be doing.