If you read my blog regularly then you might have noticed that my weekly number of posts has decreased significantly since the beginning of the year. That’s because things have been changing for me, somewhat rapidly, in the last few weeks. Change is something I always tend to fear and move away from, but I also know that at times it’s necessary in order to get from where I am to where I need to be. My recent mantra during tough moments throughout the day where I feel my anxiety spiking is “the only way out is through”, forcing me to understand that there isn’t always a loophole to void the shitty things in life. Sometimes you need to just push through to the other side.
The biggest change that happened within the last year was obviously moving to the UK and that has been a rollercoaster all on its own. Now, things are changing with regards to my career. For the past year and a bit I’ve been working from home as a freelance content writer. When I first took on this career path I was excited simply by the fact that I could get paid to write and I didn’t have to go back into an office, having been traumatized by my pervious office job in a large Canadian corporation. In a way, I wanted to relive my university lifestyle of writing from the comfort of my bedroom or couch, which I did.
It took about 8 months to begin feeling the itch of wanting something different, something more aligned with my overall goals, and another 5 to find and be offered a new job that I felt fit with those. While I was very adamant in many of my previous posts that I would never go back to an office job, I’ve recently been hired for one that is so completely different than what I thought office jobs could or should be—I’m titillated and nervous at the idea of it.
This week is officially the last week that I am a freelance writer. I really didn’t think I would be saying that any time soon, but I’m beginning to understand and accept that I am always in a state of flux and nothing has to last forever. As of next week I am starting a full-time position at a small media company as the fashion and beauty staff writer for their website. There are 5 of us on the team so far, which offers an environment that is more familial than professional, in a way. I wanted, for a long time, to work alongside others toward a common goal—something I couldn’t quite do as a freelance writer. I also have to admit that I quite missed the social interaction of going into an office. I am naturally an introvert and, while a year ago I would have never believed this, I do need forced social interaction to feel good.
So, my posts might be sparse the next few weeks as I adjust to my new job and find my footing within a new daily schedule, but I hope to get back to blogging regularly and changing the content to fit the person I am always becoming and not the one that I think I need to be.