As someone who is constantly questioning what I do, why I do it, and how I can change my patterns of behaviour, I’ve realized that there are many people out there that fear testing the waters of their own self-awareness. Yes, it’s scary to realize that something you’ve been doing for your entire life is the result of a trauma or childhood training, but lifting that curtain and discovering who you really are past all the formative experiences, should be sought after more than it currently is.
Call it spirituality, call it mindfulness, call it meditation—they are all synonymous for self-enlightenment and shouldn’t be feared because of what you might discover when you put your phone away and attempt to exist without some sort of distraction. Rather than aiding your ignorance of what your true desires might be or the solution to your negative behaviour and opting for a much easier alternative, like scrolling through Instagram a few hundred times a day, opt instead for silence. Not just spacial, but physical and mental silence.
Let your mind wander. Take a long walk without a podcast or music blaring and see what arises to the surface of your consciousness. It might lead to your first novel or the realization that you are on the trajectory of the wrong career path. It could even help you recognize that, despite all the advertisements and social media influencers attempting to tell you otherwise, you are living your life exactly how you want to be. What could be more comforting than that?