It's been a few weeks since I've posted an update about my novel and what a rollercoaster ride these past few weeks have been. As mentioned in another post I had to switch up the way I looked at my novel from simply a target word count to focusing on getting all the plot points out instead and worrying about the word count in my editing stage. Since then I've learned that even focusing on plot points isn't easy and can lead to a lot of confusion with the overall story if not planned out even slightly. Currently I am working on my 10th chapter and it's at this point that I ran into an issue that I'm sure most novelists encounter - changing my mind about what my main character does for a living and how that will affect the story in the chapters to come. I was dead set on a specific job choice for her, thinking that it would be the best way to push the plot forward, but once I started writing about it, I realized that it would make the story and the characters' interactions much more complicated than they needed to be. So, I did what any frustrated writer would do - got really annoyed, left the story for a few weeks, and only returned to it to cut out thousands of words that I would have to re-write.
Needless to say it hasn't been the most inspiring month when it comes to the story I am trying to tell. However, I think I've finally gotten to the point where I've recognized the plot point issue and written enough in chapter 8 and 9 to correct it so that going forward it'll feel more like what I envisioned the story to be initially. I thought people were exaggerating when they said that writing a novel was the hardest thing they've ever done, but I finally understand what a laborious task is actually is. I haven't been so anxious, yet satisfied about a project like this since, possibly, when I was writing a university essay. And even then, it wasn't necessarily my project. This is my story to tell from beginning to end and it's up to me to depict my characters the way the deserve to be read by others. I'm hoping that this mess up is the only one I have to face going forward, but I'm sure there'll be another down the line that will cause me to do some major rewriting in my editing stages. My goal right now is just to get the story out and tweak it as much as I want later.