Last year I wrote a post about minimalism and why I suck at it and thought I would revisit the notion after a little while of trying to be minimalist. The honest truth is that it's hard and not a lot of people will have you believe that. It's not hard because there are so many things that you can't buy now that you're a "minimalist", but because you have to stifle a certain part of your self-expression since it can no longer come from what you wear or what you surround yourself with. For social people who spend their days outside, with others, and their money on food and constant adventures, it's much easier to forgo adornment on your body or in your home. But for those of us that need a sanctuary - a sacred place that we can retire to and feel rejuvenated by our surroundings - it's not as easy.
2018 for me is not the year of minimalism, but the year of moderation. I had felt guilty the past little while when I bought new clothes to liven up my wardrobe or a few pieces to decorate my space, but I recently realized that I don't have to deprive myself completely. If I want to splurge on something that gives me value and pleasure, especially during a difficult period of time, then I'm going to do it! No more stressing about that stuff I bought when dealing with a bout of anxiety. Because, at the end of the day, what's the point if you aren't happy. Minimalism is supposed to help you realize that your happiness isn't tied to material objects, which is fantastic. But moderation allows you to indulge in a few unnecessary pleasures without feeling guilty about them.
My goal for this year is to really understand what makes me tick in all aspects of my life and learn to moderate my responses to them, rather than completely ignoring my urge to buy a new pair of shoes or a dress. I think it's much more valuable to recognize that there are things that brighten your mood, but don't always have to take up space in your life. They can be something you acquire in the distant future, or something you admire from afar, always open and willing for the opportunity, but never consumed by it.